Thursday, March 26, 2015

Turning Points & Surrender

It was his 2nd day of chemo and you could see the nausea slowly building behind his eyes, and yet his spirits were good.  As we talked, a wave of dark memories washed over me as I remembered my first few months in the hospital with my broken back, and the horrible pain and accompanying nausea.  Those days were wrapped around morphine shots until one night, alone and sobbing, I had a silent visitor teach me, surrendering to the pain and relaxing was better than a morphine shot.  The last line of Toni Morrison’s, Song of Solomon is, “If you surrender to the air, you can ride it.”  Surrendering isn’t about giving up, it’s all about shifting to a place from which you can grow.  

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